15 December 2011

Dandelions


Dandelion wishes.
     They brush past your rosy cheeks
                Like butterfly kisses.
                     A gentle caress--
           A small wrinkle in time
     When your hopes hang upon a breeze--
Suspended on the air,
        Then are brushed away
                   Like so many seeds.
                           From one wish springs another
                                   And then another dream--
                               They pop up like weeds.
                       Until by chance, or by fate,
              Your dreams are plucked from the ground
And blown away by the hopes of a stranger.
            In such a fragile cycle it continues forever,
                       Until the place where your hopes sprouted
                                  Remembers your dreams no more.
                          You realize that your life hangs
                                  Suspended on a breeze--
                                            The bloom of youth is faded and gray-
                                                           And your soul is whisped away.



And you, in turn, are forgotten

30 September 2011

Forgotten

If, from behind that hidden gravestone, buried beneath a pile of snow and supporting the weight of the world, she could have whispered the secret of living from another realm, I fear that my ignorant mind would be unable to comprehend it. In the heavenly languages spoken only between two hearts can such a secret be divulged.

Many years have passed away on the backs of autumn leaves in the winds of time, and even the name inscribed in the stone is not eternal; it crumbles away in the earth's infinite effort to erase the mark of the living from this world. There in her bed of snow, the common bed to us all, she rests forever, and someday, we shall join her.

Her name? Who can remember it, in order to grant some identity to someone who once lived and loved and burned with passion, as we live? No one. No one remembers the name of this one who finally discovered the truth only to find, in that moment, that her tongue had failed her and that her heart had frozen in order to preserve that moment of revelation forever.

Perhaps, in that moment, the times in life that she had thought herself happiest had flashed before her eyes. A wedding, or a birth? But maybe not. What if, what her heart remembered fondest, in that final moment, was not some accomplishment or triumph, but the smallest moment, a smile or a kiss. Perhaps what was most important was what she had taken for granted, the touch of a hand or the warmth of the sun.

Now, from beyond the grave, her heart beseaches mine to embrace life while it is still in my hands, even as it slips through my fingers. Accept the good with the bad and remember while I can. Enjoy the joy of companionship and make the most of relationships. Most of all, live life to the fullest.

Silently I promise her. Yet I know that I lie, and that the language of her sage heart has fallen on deaf ears. It is in human nature to forget. I know that I will forget what is important to me, and what really matters. I know that I will forget her.

Life is a journey of forgetting and only after living do we remember what we were too blind in life to see. But even now you are embarking on a wave of forgetfulness. You will forget reading this and discovering the error of your ways even as I am forgetting my own. I know that tomorrow I will be forgotten, and that tomorrow, I will remember no more..

19 July 2011

Liquid Gold

It's on the days I feel the most
That my tongue forgets how to speak.
When everything is wrong-- all I can say
If asked is "I don't know".
Of course I know-- but i can't express.

It's on these days that my muse--
Not beautiful as one would assume--
Holds a gun to my temple and forces out
Of my pained existence, a few short lines.

It's on these days, that the blood pumped
Throughout my body is sluggish-- like molten
Lead, pulsing through my arteries.

It's on the days when a thousand screams
Are trapped inside my chest--
I stand silent.

It's on these days I forget how to cry--
Though I feel I'll be rent apart if the aqueduct remains closed.

It's on these days that the few hard-earned
Rays of sunshine slip through my fingers;
Like liquid gold it drips away--

All is darkness again...

Ode to a Silver Medal


ode to a silver medal:
sometimeS your best just isn't good enough.
your Continuous laboR, all for nothing--
just to End up second place--
still a loser, never a Winner.
but what can You do?
some peOple are meant to remain second-best
for the remainder of their Underachieving lives.
other people just need to learn to read between the lines.

Fire and Ice

The ice around my heart melts
From the warmth of your touch.
What held me Captive drips away
In a deluge of liberating tears.
At last my heart thas a reason to beat--
It has been rejuvenated by Agape heat.
Again it pounds with power and strength
and Purpose.
No longer Frozen in a stupor--
Too Afraid to Live.
No--
Now Bold to Live a life of Joy,
Of peace, and all-consuming Love
A light Ignites the remnants of this heart
What once was ice-- now a fiery spark.

the Sole Sonnet


When the moon gazes wearily downward
To weep for our sorrows and struggles past,
Blow her kisses to make her smile and laugh.
And as this tired traveler moves onward--
His hope-- gleaming in the pools of moonlight
As he sheds tears for the steps that fell behind--
Those precious footsteps that fell far behind!--
Each step a painful reminder behind...
But he wishes on the moon up above--
Blows kisses to mingle with light above.
At dawn, his soul gives such a doleful sigh
He whithers like a flower in the light--
Crying: "Return sweet Mistress of the Night!"

05 February 2011

Little Angels


Little Angels
The skies opened up and relinquished a torrent of tears filling the pregnant silence with the night’s ardent mourning, on the night that the angels retreated, returning to their celestial home never to return. Those left staring blankly into the firmament where a great thunderclap that jarred them to the bones and left them trembling with apprehension, wiped the rain from their eyes before returning likewise to their nightly routines. The winter nights were long and people of the province had taken to sleeping during the few hours of sunlight and carrying about their business in the evenings.
            Evelyn Meyers returned to a blackened house that was like a kiss of death after the radiant light of truth receding on the horizon. She carried a small child on her hip who was still staring off into the distance where the last remnants of the illumination the angels had brought was fading, but her mother simply turned her back and reentered the chilly house. She was uncomfortable in her home now that the light was gone; she struck a match and lit a lamp while grumbling about how dim a lamp was when compared to the brilliancy of what had passed.
            Her little daughter, Aurora, who was no more than three, pressed her head into her mother’s chest closing her eyes tight trying to solidify the grand scene of the angelic hosts rising back into Heaven in her memory, but Evelyn placed her down in her cradle for a nap and closed the door leaving her in darkness before her eyes had had time to adjust. In the darkness of a moonless night, the image of the glorious seraphs seemed imprinted on her eyelids, and she saw them even when she closed her eyes and drifted off to sleep.
            Evelyn busied herself drawing the shades on the windows and mending some drapes that needed patching, too busy to know that Aurora had drifted into a dream that was filled with light, where angels fluttered about her head calling out to her “Come with us! Isn’t the light warm on your skin? Breathe it in, drink it up!” The light in her dream grew more and more brilliant as the cold air chilled her earthly body to the bone; her spirit was drenched in the warm rays of Heaven.
            Sighing to herself, Evelyn remembered the change that had come over the town in a few short nights after the angels had arrived. Some had cried “miraculous!” others had called them “demons!”, but she believed they were stars fallen from the sky to bring them light. The fact of the matter was that no one, not even wise Father Ross, had ever seen the like, nor had there been any documentation of angels descending from Heaven, causing the darkness of night to dissipate since Bible times. There had been shouts of joy as the people could work more diligently in the light of the angelic rays, nobody even heard the elegiac songs that they sang, which were so melancholy that the stars were blurred from tears in the eyes of the heavens. The people were deaf to the mournful tone and danced jubilantly about and whistled as they worked.
            It was three days after the angels had descended that their joy turned sour and the townspeople could take no more; they had been unable to sleep in the daylight which was too luminous to be blocked by the thin shades in their homes, and the incessant chanting and singing of this celestial choir made the hours pass restlessly away. It was decided that Father Ross would be the one to solve their dilemma; accepting the charge, he climbed to the top of the tallest building and out on to the roof shouting “back to where you came from!” at the top of his lungs until he was hoarse, and with a final “Away! Begone!” he descended.
            The angels heard the cries of the priest and the angered shouting of the mob that was gathering at the base of the building throwing stones at them and shooing them away and quietly returned to Heaven. In the ensuing silence, there was not a single person whose ears were not ringing and whose eyes were struggling to readjust to the darkness. They stumbled and tripped over each other as they turned to resume the routines that they had fixed for themselves; some cooking breakfast, others feeding the animals, and still other getting a start on opening shops and stores. Each of them had a slightly shorter temper than was their wont.
            Evelyn put it out of her mind and resumed her nightly schedule without noticing a final angel lagging behind the others rise to Heaven through the tears of the sky. No one saw this little angel ascend, answering the invitation of the seraphs that had already departed, they were too engulfed in their tasks to look up and wonder what this last ray of light could be. The light faded softly away and the sun set on Aurora leaving all in a more bitter darkness than they realized.